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i was feeling fine, you'll be coming clean tonight.. [25 Sep 2005|06:57pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

amber came over friday night.
we burnt the house down.
jk, jk.


so what's the deal with anthony green?
is he in saosin or is he in circa survive?
both, right? well how?
what one does he go on tour with & stuff?
cause i've heard of both recently going on tour.
this confuses devin. devin doesn't like being confused.

why am i talking in 3rd person?
lol that's how cool i am :]



you want it
you got it
you feel it
gun in hand.

kiss me one last time

your the reason i cannot forget this isn't over. [24 Sep 2005|12:33pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Yeah it's over,
You can bet in mid-october,
I will still be ranting 'bout early may.
Yeah he's a winner,
He's a goddamn sinner.
While he dines I'm on the wrong side of the day.
And I said, "I don't understand why I'm fumbling after"
You're the reason I cannot forget this season
Or the letter when she first referred to eight.
And i said,

It's all calypso.
But it's not easy to know.
You walk around with your shoulders down frowning,
But it's not easy to know.

Yeah It's over.
You can bet when mid-october end's
I'll still be ranting 'bout most early may.
Yeah, he's a winner.
He's a goddamn sinner.
While he dines I'm on the wrong side of the day.
And I said, "I don't understand why I'm fumbling after"
Yeah, you're the reason I cannot forget this season,
Or the lesson how an ape shall not kill ape.

And I said,
It's all calypso.
But it's not easy to know.
You walk around with your shoulders down frowning,
But it's not easy to know.
It's just a tango.
But it's not easy, you know.
I walk around with my horns out now,
But it's not easy to know.

I'm.. I'm.. I'm.. I'm..
I'm going under,
I'm going under,
I'm going under.

You can't trust a man who's a governor
Ape can't trust man.
You can't trust a man with a gun at all.
Ape can't trust man.

You can't trust me.

It's all calypso.
But it's not easy to know.
You walk around with your shoulders down frowning,
But it's not easy to know.
It's just a tango.
But it's not easy, you know.
I walk around with my horns out now,
But it's not easy to know.

How can you heal?
If you don't ease back the blame.
Knowing you're right, won't you heal?
How can you heal?
If you don't ease back the blame.
Knowing you're right, won't you heal?


wow.
i love that song.

kiss me one last time

she's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego [21 Sep 2005|08:57pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

kelly is coming over tomorrow.
we are gonna make brownies! =]

kiss me one last time

i hate the way you say my name like it's something secret [20 Sep 2005|09:05pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

i wish that i was as invisable
as you make me feel



well today kind of sucked. it was okay
it wasn't too good though. it was more
on the bad side.. =[

i left my lunch money, gym sneaker &&
project, and probably more at home =/

period 1

earth science
we looked through the spectroscope
blah, blah, blahh. me, trevor & nathan
are a lab group. he took chelsea outt.
man this suckss =[

homebase O9

class assembally
they basically told us about homecoming.
&& running for class officer. boringgggg.
then we got to leave. it was a waste of
my precious, valuable singing timeeee !!!!

period 2

chorus
we got to sing. we sang our hearts out.
it was fun because we don't do work =]
we just sing. i like singing, so thats cool.

period 3

integrated algebra 1
today i got put in a group with james keenan,
chelsea east, && ian blodgett. were all dumb.
but it was fun, except james making fun of me
him & his rage against the machine shirt.
making fun of me & my beetle's shirt.
just because i don't know the names of the songs
doesn't mean i don't know the songs.
its just a shirt. get over yourself. seriously.

lunch

jsdahaduhuhe
some kid behind me in the lunch line
kept telling me how i got 'gimped out'
on my slice of pizza. uhm, okayyy lol.
he was kinda cute, but i was scared.
so i just said 'okay' and nodded a little.
i have to pay the lunch lady back tomorrow
i think she got mad that i forgot my money =/
i mean, i didn't mean to forget it. i just did.

period 4

physical education
gym should be illegal.




oh yeah.

shawnlennon8*: someday babe
GETTiNG iNTOxYOU: kay ;]
shawnlennon8*: i promise

enough said.


&& ps; i <3 meagan! =]
kiss me one last time

what made you so scared? maybe your mistaken for someone who cares [19 Sep 2005|05:32pm]
[ mood | bored ]

today i felt like i could not get up
but i knew i had to, so i did
it took me a while though
then i got ready a little
talked to brad, & went to school

school was blahhh
i dont remember
it wasn't good
but it wasn't bad
it just sorta. . .was
y o u k n o w?

period 1

freshman workshop
b o r i n g . i mean it was so boring
i read the whole 85 minutes again
&& i finished like within
first 5O mins. so i just read ahead
i thought it was gonna last forever
i w a s c o l d t o o =[

period 2

world history
this is the class that really woke me up =]
we took a test on the criminal justice system
or something like that && listened to mr. clifford
talk for like 392O483298 m i n u t e s
we finished the fishing//hunting questions
from last week with our group too but the only
thing that half my group could talk about was
megan and tony having sex last weekend so
i j u s t s a t t h e r e && l i s t e n e d

lunch

weeee
i sat with elise, her brother travis && aleesa
nobody has first lunch on red days anymore
so i ate a slice of pizza with a small salad &&
chocolate milk then i went & got a cookie too
& then i bought ice tea for the rest of the day

period 3

opportunity awareness program
i forgot to bring in my pictures. oops. my bad.
so i'm just gonna finish my intro. page at home
matt told me to take some quiz for him i was
like 'um no' lol but then he's like 'ill give you a
dollar' && im like 'haha no' & he's like 'what?
i think its worth it..' i thought it was funny..
its hard though, because i wanted to hate
him so bad back then... but now, i'm like
wtf were you thinking wanting to hate him' idk
he's such a great guy =D i love talking to him..
i'm so glad we're friends. it means a lot to me

period 4

english 9
we watched part of speak. i was so happy
lol i <3 that movie. it is a w e s o m e e
we also took a quiz, i guess, but i wasn't
aware that it was a quiz lol. this class
went by sooo fast, it was crazyy. we didn't
do much. it was fun though. =]

i have the house to myself the whole night.
this should be fun. nobody's coming over
though. but next summer when nick's here
oh you know i'll have him over ;] lol well i
have a project due tomorrow i didn't really
start it. that's not too smart of me, so i
guess i'll go do it maybe lol upate laterrr. <3

kiss me one last time

tragic, it seems, to be alone again... [18 Sep 2005|09:03pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

okay, so i need to make this quick.
ahh fuck it. i'll just update in the am.

edit



alright, see? i told you i would update! =] hehe.
so friday night i went to the football game. sphs vs. westbrook.
westbrook won. go figure. our varsity team sucks this year.
the freshman are good though. lol.
i was hanging out with jessica at the game. we saw kseniya.
then i was hanging out with meagan & stephanie.
then stephanie & carlin were bitching each other out. it was funny.
god, i love stephanie! lol i hate carlin though, she's a fuckin bitch.
she acts like she's better than everyone else, and uh, new flash babe,
your nothing. stupid, stupid, stupid. then i went home and slept.

saturday i went to bonanza & then i went to my nana's.
then nicholette came and picked me up, and i went to her gram's house.
we had the house to ourselves, so she had ed & nick come over.
then we went across the street to her dad's house,
which we also had to ourselves. ed and nickel were having sex,
and nick wouldn't even go near me. i have no idea why, but whatev.
maybe he's gay? who knows.

sunday we were still with nick & ed. then finally her dad left,
and they snuck back out around fucking 1:30 lol.
then we walked to rodger's supa dolla & they went home.
we walked back to her gram's house & then we had them bring us to mcdonalds.
then my nana came so i left and went to her house, where we had
auntie linda's party. they were about 1 hour & 1/2 late, but that's okayy.
i helped jesse with his homework while my mom drove me back to south portland.
kiss me one last time

flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors && i am fine. [17 Sep 2005|04:18pm]
[ mood | content ]

well today was interesting.
my dad woke me up at 8:30 to tell me nickel called me.
&& that she was gonna call me back in 5 minutes.
i was half asleep so i was just kinda like, whatever.
then he woke me up again a few minutes later.
to see if i had the phone with me.
so i just said 'fuck it' and got up.
then i ate breakfast.
&& since she never calls back when she says she will,
i got on the computer.

she was talking about how she got so drunk last night.
i didn't really care, but whatever.
i honestly don't see whats so great about drinking
when your just going to vomit it back up the next day.
but if you really think it's worth it, got for it.
i could honestly care less...


The first 1O lies they tell you in High School

O1. We are here to help you.
O2. You will have enough time to get to your class before the bell rings.
O3. The dress code will be enforced.
O4. No smoking is allowed on school grounds.
O5. Our football team will win the championship this year.
O6. We expect more of you here.
O7. Guidance counselors are always available to listen.
O8. Your schedual was created with your needs in mind.
O9. Your locker combination is private.
1O. These will be the years you look back on fondly


i thought that described high school pretty well.
kiss me one last time

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